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Wednesday, February 17, 2010

When Passion Fades

Woke up for my typical Wednesday morning run and fought getting out of bed like crazy.  The temperature was once again below freezing.  Sadly, it had been ten days since my last run.  Oh, must go, must go, Must GO!

I suppose the ten days off is a bit misleading.  We just returned from skiing in Taos & Santa Fe.  As you might imagine, it was simply beautiful.

It should be noted that running long distances at a slow pace does not prepare you as well as one might hope for a hard few days on the slopes.  To be positive, this could be considered cross-training and I came home undamaged.

The time off and cross-training did not make these morning miles any easier.  In fact, for the first time in many months, I began to question why I'm doing this.  I don't have anything to prove and I'm sick of the cold weather.  If I hadn't already registered to run a half marathon next week, I think I would have just quit right then and there.

Nevertheless, I was reminded that this down or depressed feeling about my running is quite common.  While I've been a runner for almost 20 years, I have had lengthy periods of time when I didn't run at all or simply went through the motions.  Times when I simply lost my passion for running.

This seemingly seasonal shift can be said of many aspects of my life.  None more important than my faith.  Whether it is my prayer life, time studying the Word, volunteering to help others or worship, I regret there have been periods in my life that I was clearly going through the motions.

It is interesting to note that my faith is strongest when I'm passionate about my training.  I tend to spend much more time growing my relationship with God at a time when I have less time to give to it.  It must be the structure of training that allows me to be more disciplined in my pursuit of God.  Or, more likely, it is my desire to be close to God that inspires me to run.  Whatever it is, it works for me.

So today I once again vow to rekindle my passion for both.  For the both do me good.

Run in Peace, Rest in Grace